We May Fall - But We Don't Stay Down
How many times have we fallen from the Grace that our Heavenly Father established through His Son Yeshua? Lets be honest here, at some point in our walk on the narrow road we have diviated from following the Way of Truth and either returned to the path of destruction or find a new path loaded with sinful goodies. We find objects of past comforts of deception or follow misleading information that entices us like the Serpent did with Eve which led to the fall of man.
When we stray from the path that Father has created and mapped out for our journey, it creates a vacuum that removes us from His safety net, from the umbrella of His protection and if we allow it to, it will suck out the portion of His Presence within us while all the while striving to convince us that we are doing nothing wrong. Trying to justify our actions, but our way of thinking contradicts what the Father had done through the work of the Cross.
Grace and justification are two words that are taken too lightly while at the same time used to try and "explain away" or justify the reason for the undertaken sin including "well I'm still human, subject to fall but thank God I am under 'grace' since all my sins have already been forgiven me at the Cross...etc, etc, etc....Ummmm, excuse me? Seriously? That is nothing but crap that is really saying this; "I - am - taking - advantage - of - the - gift - of - salvation." In other words, using the Lord. That is arrogance and the Lord is not amused by it. Being under His grace does not give us the right to sin, His grace which I have learned personally to be true, is undeserved favor and all our sins were justified; made right with the Father ONLY THRU the Salvation granted us by way of the death of Christ - thru His Blood which atoned for our sins (Romans chapters 5 - 6). So for all the attitudes that feel that they are deserving of His Grace and Mercy, get over yourself, it is so not about us.
Now for those of us that have detoured off the path onto the wide road due to hurts, anger and/or weakness and are feeling guilty, shame or embarrassed, simply stated; don't. I know that in the moment we may feel within ourselves lower than dirt and may cry out to the Lord "O what a wreched soul am I!" but you don't have to stay there. The enemy will try to use every trick in the book to slam you and make you feel like a zero, but remember that our Heavenly Father has seen it all and is waiting with open arms for you to run into them. Sometimes He does not even wait, sometimes He runs to you and picks you up in His arms and holds you as your tears are flowing while your crying out for forgiveness. Just imagine that - see it - Him whispering words of comfort into your ear, He telling you softly that all is forgiven and forgotten, as He rocks you in motherly love, smoothes your furrowed brow until the sobbing has subsided and you rest in Him thru His peace.
Some of you know my testimony, how I was abused for years and years from my mom and her friends. I had received the Gift from the Lord when I was about eight years old, only to renounce Him when I turned thirteen because of the beatings that were being inflicted on me, I already felt totally alone and it felt like He had turned His back on me. Although my mother taught me much, I never ever felt loved by her, only fear and I began to think that maybe that was normal. Before my mother died when I was sixteen, I got raped and in December of that year, I lost the baby. I then went on a rampage of drinking and drugs and became both a well known exotic and club dancer. I was spinning out of control and did not care. However, not far from my thoughts daily, I remembered my walk with Christ, but my anger at Him and the hurt I felt because I thought He had abandoned me kept me from inviting Him back in.
Then one day when I was twenty-two after hooking up with some friends, I bought some powder and crack cocaine and proceeded to get high. I was an addict and craved for it after running out, so later on I got myself some more crack and after smoking it I started feeling weird. My body started shaking, I got very dizzy and ended up in the bathroom (I'll spare the details of that visit). After I was done my legs were shaking so bad that I could not stand up so I crawled into my bedroom. By then my whole body was shaking so fiercely that my teeth were clinking together hard, and I could hear the blood rushing throughout my body like a roaring ocean. My heart rate was so fast and strong that each vein was pulsing and liquid was pouring out of me in volumnes of sweat while inside I felt like I was freezing. I knew I needed to go to the hospital but was afraid, and was terrified to die so there on the floor I prayed for the first time since my mother was in the hospital, and asked the Lord to spare my life, and as I lay there waiting for the symptoms to subside, I asked for forgiveness.
Needless to say, He did and I am here as a testiment of His unlimited mercy. I fell and it took me a while but I found my footing and got back up...I refused to stay down. And it was not the first time I fell and probably will not be the last, but I know enough to know that even if/when I fall, I don't have to stay down. The work done on the Cross for my salvation I did not earn, but was given to me at a very high price. But being justified through grace does not mean that I go out and step into deliberate sin, on the contrary; it is a chance for me to walk daily in His deliverance, His righteousness and to reciprocate His love and devotion.
Don't worry about the enemy, Father has dealt with and will deal with him. We repent (in sincerity), and receive the strength given to us through the loving arms of the Lord so we can get back on our feet again, back on the narrow road and continue on with our purpose. Redeemed, saved, forgiven, sactified and justified, we are dying to self daily. No one said that we would not make mistakes or bad choices, but if we truly repent, without it being a case of taking advantage of the grace bestowed upon us, we then can reclaim the position that we left when we fell, brush the dirt off ourselves and keep moving on. We may fall...but we don't stay down.
When we stray from the path that Father has created and mapped out for our journey, it creates a vacuum that removes us from His safety net, from the umbrella of His protection and if we allow it to, it will suck out the portion of His Presence within us while all the while striving to convince us that we are doing nothing wrong. Trying to justify our actions, but our way of thinking contradicts what the Father had done through the work of the Cross.
Grace and justification are two words that are taken too lightly while at the same time used to try and "explain away" or justify the reason for the undertaken sin including "well I'm still human, subject to fall but thank God I am under 'grace' since all my sins have already been forgiven me at the Cross...etc, etc, etc....Ummmm, excuse me? Seriously? That is nothing but crap that is really saying this; "I - am - taking - advantage - of - the - gift - of - salvation." In other words, using the Lord. That is arrogance and the Lord is not amused by it. Being under His grace does not give us the right to sin, His grace which I have learned personally to be true, is undeserved favor and all our sins were justified; made right with the Father ONLY THRU the Salvation granted us by way of the death of Christ - thru His Blood which atoned for our sins (Romans chapters 5 - 6). So for all the attitudes that feel that they are deserving of His Grace and Mercy, get over yourself, it is so not about us.
Now for those of us that have detoured off the path onto the wide road due to hurts, anger and/or weakness and are feeling guilty, shame or embarrassed, simply stated; don't. I know that in the moment we may feel within ourselves lower than dirt and may cry out to the Lord "O what a wreched soul am I!" but you don't have to stay there. The enemy will try to use every trick in the book to slam you and make you feel like a zero, but remember that our Heavenly Father has seen it all and is waiting with open arms for you to run into them. Sometimes He does not even wait, sometimes He runs to you and picks you up in His arms and holds you as your tears are flowing while your crying out for forgiveness. Just imagine that - see it - Him whispering words of comfort into your ear, He telling you softly that all is forgiven and forgotten, as He rocks you in motherly love, smoothes your furrowed brow until the sobbing has subsided and you rest in Him thru His peace.
Some of you know my testimony, how I was abused for years and years from my mom and her friends. I had received the Gift from the Lord when I was about eight years old, only to renounce Him when I turned thirteen because of the beatings that were being inflicted on me, I already felt totally alone and it felt like He had turned His back on me. Although my mother taught me much, I never ever felt loved by her, only fear and I began to think that maybe that was normal. Before my mother died when I was sixteen, I got raped and in December of that year, I lost the baby. I then went on a rampage of drinking and drugs and became both a well known exotic and club dancer. I was spinning out of control and did not care. However, not far from my thoughts daily, I remembered my walk with Christ, but my anger at Him and the hurt I felt because I thought He had abandoned me kept me from inviting Him back in.
Then one day when I was twenty-two after hooking up with some friends, I bought some powder and crack cocaine and proceeded to get high. I was an addict and craved for it after running out, so later on I got myself some more crack and after smoking it I started feeling weird. My body started shaking, I got very dizzy and ended up in the bathroom (I'll spare the details of that visit). After I was done my legs were shaking so bad that I could not stand up so I crawled into my bedroom. By then my whole body was shaking so fiercely that my teeth were clinking together hard, and I could hear the blood rushing throughout my body like a roaring ocean. My heart rate was so fast and strong that each vein was pulsing and liquid was pouring out of me in volumnes of sweat while inside I felt like I was freezing. I knew I needed to go to the hospital but was afraid, and was terrified to die so there on the floor I prayed for the first time since my mother was in the hospital, and asked the Lord to spare my life, and as I lay there waiting for the symptoms to subside, I asked for forgiveness.
Needless to say, He did and I am here as a testiment of His unlimited mercy. I fell and it took me a while but I found my footing and got back up...I refused to stay down. And it was not the first time I fell and probably will not be the last, but I know enough to know that even if/when I fall, I don't have to stay down. The work done on the Cross for my salvation I did not earn, but was given to me at a very high price. But being justified through grace does not mean that I go out and step into deliberate sin, on the contrary; it is a chance for me to walk daily in His deliverance, His righteousness and to reciprocate His love and devotion.
Don't worry about the enemy, Father has dealt with and will deal with him. We repent (in sincerity), and receive the strength given to us through the loving arms of the Lord so we can get back on our feet again, back on the narrow road and continue on with our purpose. Redeemed, saved, forgiven, sactified and justified, we are dying to self daily. No one said that we would not make mistakes or bad choices, but if we truly repent, without it being a case of taking advantage of the grace bestowed upon us, we then can reclaim the position that we left when we fell, brush the dirt off ourselves and keep moving on. We may fall...but we don't stay down.
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